Moments of Solace...

...I long for more with You.

Forgive me Allah I have failed.

I don't spend enough on Your doings. I tend to get lost in this world at times. Please help me to always remember You. To have You in my heart always. Taqwa is what I seek to gain. Though I seem not to have proven so.

As the days go on, it dawns on me slowly  the wrongs I have done. Thank You.

Now as I sit in the quiet of the night, strip me off ugly adornments, let me engage with humility. To see the light, clothing myself once again transparently, layer by layer, seeing clearly with a heart that desires and strives to be pure.

Forgive me Allah, please forgive this humble servant of Yours.

Man Was Never Meant To Fly

When we find our wings, we soar. Soaring to great heights till we lose sight of the ground below. We leave the nest, travelling distances far and wide.

Mesmerised by the sights from a whole new perspective, we forget the roots that gave us stronghold. 

The individual stripped off humility, gratitude, love and appreciation of life.

Beauty and Blessings

It was the early morning rain that urged me out of bed. Watching the rain fall, listening to raindrops splashing in the pool, feeling the cool morning breeze. 'Lovely' - the most simple descriptive word for mother nature. 

The birds have now started their morning call. I can't help but smile, a sense of calmness and peace arising within me, connecting with the beauty that surrounds.

A Striving Soul

I'm thankful, grateful
Searching, yearning.
The love I feel so intensely
Though sometimes I fail miserably.

A longing to feel Your closeness, always
At times stumbling,
But I shall never lose hope
For I seek the love You are so willing to give.

So Cold

On the way to the mosque this morning for my Eid prayers, a friend who has been working with refugees for umpteen years requested a prayer for the refugees and stateless people, and for peace.


When I left the mosque, I texted him, "Have done so. Thank you for the reminder on this day for the less unfortunate. How did the world become so cold...."

Coming Clean

It's close to night fall and I'm ending the day feeling happy and settled. "Relieved" might be the word to sum up how I am feeling.

Though I can't help feeling a little peeved with myself, having delved in "what ifs" and fears for quite a while, which all seem so ridiculously unnecessary now. 

I am pleased too, that I have come to realise the need to be more sensitive, tolerant and understanding; to look beyond my emotions and needs. Hurt, anguish, fear - it envelopes every individual, not just me. I should not dash another's hope and happiness with my opinion, or hurt others due to my own fears.

Speaking up does not guarantee the outcome we desire, but more importantly, it's about being honest and open, clearing the path off suspicions and doubts.

Paint Me A Pretty Picture

Paint me a pretty picture

Where I let go of all inhibitions,

And feel with all my heart.

Removing the barriers

That has held me in a prison

From unlocked emotions.

To be able to shed hurt,

Confront fears.

Walking away from ugliness,

Enveloped in an artistry of

Longing pleasure,

Experiencing peace, joy, contentment,

Love.

Painting a pretty picture.