A Striving Soul

I'm thankful, grateful
Searching, yearning.
The love I feel so intensely
Though sometimes I fail miserably.

A longing to feel Your closeness, always
At times stumbling,
But I shall never lose hope
For I seek the love You are so willing to give.

So Cold

On the way to the mosque this morning for my Eid prayers, a friend who has been working with refugees for umpteen years requested a prayer for the refugees and stateless people, and for peace.


When I left the mosque, I texted him, "Have done so. Thank you for the reminder on this day for the less unfortunate. How did the world become so cold...."

Coming Clean

It's close to night fall and I'm ending the day feeling happy and settled. "Relieved" might be the word to sum up how I am feeling.

Though I can't help feeling a little peeved with myself, having delved in "what ifs" and fears for quite a while, which all seem so ridiculously unnecessary now. 

I am pleased too, that I have come to realise the need to be more sensitive, tolerant and understanding; to look beyond my emotions and needs. Hurt, anguish, fear - it envelopes every individual, not just me. I should not dash another's hope and happiness with my opinion, or hurt others due to my own fears.

Speaking up does not guarantee the outcome we desire, but more importantly, it's about being honest and open, clearing the path off suspicions and doubts.

Paint Me A Pretty Picture

Paint me a pretty picture

Where I let go of all inhibitions,

And feel with all my heart.

Removing the barriers

That has held me in a prison

From unlocked emotions.

To be able to shed hurt,

Confront fears.

Walking away from ugliness,

Enveloped in an artistry of

Longing pleasure,

Experiencing peace, joy, contentment,

Love.

Painting a pretty picture.

A Moment of Solace

Nature inspires me to find solitude, to search within me, to be free from chains that bind....

Hiding Behind A Mask

It is so hard to cope with this longing that I feel.
I want to tell you
With the hope that if released from within me,
The emotions arisen 
Might be easier to endure.


To venture on a journey where
Strings are not there to bind my emotions,
And to keep me on guard -
It scares me;
I have never been there.


Logic - my faithful friend - has deserted me.


I picture myself walking through a forest of green,
Lost, lost in the world of beauty,
Hoping to find some serenity 
From this turmoil within me.

When sadness overwhelms,

I contemplate on telling you

Though I cannot bear the thought of a friendship lost

If the only gain was to bring me ease...

When you don't feel me the way I feel you.

A Driving Force

Dreams aspire but let's not lose full hold of reality.

Hand in Hand We Care, We Share

Sorrows fill our hearts in the midst of waves that crash to the shore.
I have shared your joys and now your pain.
At a loss for words though sadness I feel
Not knowing how to help heal.
I can only be with you
If not in presence, in my thoughts.


Life is fragile and it is in times of adversity
When we somehow gain the admirable trait of humility.


Hold on, hang on, we feel with you.

Timely Reminders

My life's travels has been a virtual up and down ride. I am not complaining and have taken things in stride.

I just ponder that I possibly go astray so often that I need jolting reminders to help me on the right path.

For the first time in my life I dare say I feel happy and contented. For so many years I have been a bud and have finally bloomed within me. 

We can plan but we are not the determiners of our life on this earth. I can accept that

A Traveller.