Hiding Behind A Mask

It is so hard to cope with this longing that I feel.
I want to tell you
With the hope that if released from within me,
The emotions arisen 
Might be easier to endure.


To venture on a journey where
Strings are not there to bind my emotions,
And to keep me on guard -
It scares me;
I have never been there.


Logic - my faithful friend - has deserted me.


I picture myself walking through a forest of green,
Lost, lost in the world of beauty,
Hoping to find some serenity 
From this turmoil within me.

When sadness overwhelms,

I contemplate on telling you

Though I cannot bear the thought of a friendship lost

If the only gain was to bring me ease...

When you don't feel me the way I feel you.