She Was So Wonderful

She looked after me so well.
How could I have given up on her?
I can't turn back the time,
Can't right what I did so wrong.
She loved me so much,
Gave up so much for me.
How could I have been so blind.
There are no words to say to her anymore -
She is no longer here.
She passed on without family beside her.
I can't ask her for forgiveness
And am filled with grief.
I have done a grave error
I understand if I can't be forgiven.
But still I try and beg for forgiveness,
My only shot.
I am sorry for being heartless, cruel and not there when she needed me.
I thought I tried my best but I know now it was far from good enough.
I failed in patience, perseverance;
Filled with selfishness.
Am I fit enough to ask for Your Mercy?
I understand if deemed not.
I will have to face the consequences.
I continue to seek forgiveness for all that I have failed to deliver.
Striving on,
Thanking Allah for His reminders.
Please forgive me for my wrong doings.